With this week being over and Thanks­giv­ing just around the corner I have to admit to myself that my life has taken a turn towards an even more inter­est­ing jour­ney than I had had before. Thursday was a very suc­cess­ful day and any­one that would like to know in detail what tran­spired is more than wel­come to read my slave’s excel­lent art­icle over at her site. My thoughts will not be spe­cific, rather I would like to reflect a little bit on why it happened the way it happened.

I believe that kaja is an incred­ibly tal­en­ted young woman with the abil­ity of being an excep­tional sub­missive, slave, pup­py­girl…
What I am aim­ing to express is that she can choose to become any­thing the per­son she serves desires her to be. She has the abil­ity and the desire to be pleas­ing to those that are import­ant to her. When she came to visit with us, I wanted to give her a dif­fer­ent exper­i­ence. This par­tic­u­lar time I wanted to be sure that we cover one topic in particular.

Obed­i­ence

I am sure that kaja has exper­i­enced many things in her young life and her very act­ive sched­ule on play­ing has enabled her to exper­i­ence many phys­ical sen­sa­tions, some­thing she writes read­ily about on her site. It was import­ant to me to stim­u­late her brain just as much as I wanted her to exper­i­ence pleas­ure and pain. I needed, for my own sake, to cre­ate an envir­on­ment where she clearly under­stood what her place was and I had hoped that this envir­on­ment would turn her on as well.

It seems that I have been suc­cess­ful and I am very happy about that. Pay­ing atten­tion to little detail, such as keep­ing her in the closet for a short while is import­ant to me as it sets the right tone of voice. I want her to under­stand that she is a toy in this house­hold. That she exists for us to make our wild­est dreams come true, to enhance the exist­ing rela­tion­ship my slave and I already enjoy. In the course of this explor­a­tion I would hope that she gains pleas­ure from not only being an obed­i­ent and will­ing toy, but also because she learns to exper­i­ence many new things.

I believe that kaja will excel in an envir­on­ment that is strictly con­trolled and reg­u­lated. Teach­ing her to act, speak, present and move in a way that is pleas­ing to me and my slave will be a joy for me and hope­fully bene­fi­cial to her as well. We all know that it is ulti­mately within her con­trol how far this can be advanced, but so far I believe we are on the same train of thought. I want her to exper­i­ence what it means to be a table, a lamp, a pony girl, a puppy girl, a tor­ture vic­tim or a ser­vant that executes a Japan­ese tea cere­mony perfectly.

Expect­a­tions

I know that kaja is excep­tion­ally smart. That is the main reason why my expect­a­tions for her are much higher than those for the aver­age per­son I meet. I know her brain is cap­able of quickly assess­ing a situ­ation, draw­ing the right con­clu­sions and I under­stand that she com­pre­hends how to act and react in any given situ­ation when I give her the oppor­tun­ity to learn prior to it. As time pro­gresses and our meet­ings become more fre­quent, depend­ing on her sched­ule and need to be with us, the rules and expect­a­tions for her will become much harder to sat­isfy. I am fully pre­pared to lead her care­fully to the very edge and have a tether there, almost fall­ing over into the abyss. i am will­ing to take that respons­ib­il­ity and I am almost sure that kaja is will­ing to go there.

I have expect­a­tions for myself and my slave as well. I hope that we can grow just because there is another stim­u­lus in our rela­tion­ship and I can hon­estly say that it has invig­or­ated me and simply reas­sured me of how much I love my slave. I have feel­ings for kaja which are present every time we play, yet when I dive into them to invest­ig­ate I am always left with one con­clu­sion. I love my slave, I am in love with my slave and in this early phase I have developed a pleth­ora of feel­ings for kaja which all revolve around being pro­tect­ive and a little pos­sess­ive as well. When you find a toy as pre­cious as her you want to claim it for your­self, keep it from the rest of the world and guard it jeal­ously. In real­ity that only means that I am enjoy­ing myself and itis of course her decision to judge how much she wants myself and my slave to be allowed to con­trol over the next few years.

This is a tax­ing chal­lenge for me. I am very set in my ways when it comes to get­ting what I want. I lack the moral tis­sue many are taught or born with that pro­tects the rest of the world from the evil antics of an indi­vidual. When I want some­thing I am will­ing to step over dead bod­ies, stop time and I am not even opposed to doing some­thing illegal, as long as no one gets harmed. It takes me a dis­pro­por­tion­ate amount of time to decide what I want and I am very picky when I actu­ally approach what I want, but once my mind is made up I go for it.

With a human being that poses a lot of issues. Emo­tional sta­bil­ity, expect­a­tions and under­stand­ing of what you want of that other being has to come first, You can­not simply put them into a bag and carry them off, then keep them in a little shelf and look at the all day long with a silly grin on your face.

Seduc­tion

In the face of full dis­clos­ure and because I believe it makes the hunt much more inter­est­ing I am going to reveal one of my secrets. I do hope that this is no secret to any­one with half a cup of com­mon sense, yet some­times it has to be said.
Just as I did with my slave, to get her to want to be with me and sur­render to me as my slave, I want to seduce kaja into want­ing to be our little toy. I want to struc­ture her exper­i­ences and my will­ing­ness to listen to her wants and needs in a way that it becomes an exper­i­ence you want to have over and over again. Very much like that one ride at the one park. While you can go to any other fun park in the world and ride all those rides, you still come back to this par­tic­u­lar one. You come back because it can give you some­thing the other rides can­not, or it gives  an amount of some­thing the other rides can­not top.

I want us to be her fun park and my slave as well as me the ride. I great pride in edu­cat­ing myself in try­ing to be a good Mas­ter, Owner and Trainer and I know that my slave con­stantly aims to improve her­self. I want her to under­stand that she can grow with us. She is allowed to be any­thing she wants, a bond­age doll, wrapped in latex, covered in rub­ber, a porn star or kinky pup­py­girl with her own web-site that funds her edu­ca­tion. I want her to under­stand that as much as I want her to be shaped into some­thing that makes my slave and me smile, she also need to see me as an ena­bler. That is what I do in my pro­fes­sional life and it is a set of val­ues I believe in.

We all set ourselves goals and I should set myself one. Whether that is to have the best time ever and enjoy it while it lasts or sedu­cing kaja enough for her to grovel and beg for a col­lar; I have not decided yet, I am sure we will find out soon.