Her Owner

With this week being over and Thanksgiving just around the corner I have to admit to myself that my life has taken a turn towards an even more interesting journey than I had had before. Thursday was a very successful day and anyone that would like to know in detail what transpired is more than welcome to read my slave’s excellent article over at her site. My thoughts will not be specific, rather I would like to reflect a little bit on why it happened the way it happened.

I believe that kaja is an incredibly talented young woman with the ability of being an exceptional submissive, slave, puppygirl…
What I am aiming to express is that she can choose to become anything the person she serves desires her to be. She has the ability and the desire to be pleasing to those that are important to her. When she came to visit with us, I wanted to give her a different experience. This particular time I wanted to be sure that we cover one topic in particular.

Obedience

I am sure that kaja has experienced many things in her young life and her very active schedule on playing has enabled her to experience many physical sensations, something she writes readily about on her site. It was important to me to stimulate her brain just as much as I wanted her to experience pleasure and pain. I needed, for my own sake, to create an environment where she clearly understood what her place was and I had hoped that this environment would turn her on as well.

It seems that I have been successful and I am very happy about that. Paying attention to little detail, such as keeping her in the closet for a short while is important to me as it sets the right tone of voice. I want her to understand that she is a toy in this household. That she exists for us to make our wildest dreams come true, to enhance the existing relationship my slave and I already enjoy. In the course of this exploration I would hope that she gains pleasure from not only being an obedient and willing toy, but also because she learns to experience many new things.

I believe that kaja will excel in an environment that is strictly controlled and regulated. Teaching her to act, speak, present and move in a way that is pleasing to me and my slave will be a joy for me and hopefully beneficial to her as well. We all know that it is ultimately within her control how far this can be advanced, but so far I believe we are on the same train of thought. I want her to experience what it means to be a table, a lamp, a pony girl, a puppy girl, a torture victim or a servant that executes a Japanese tea ceremony perfectly.

Expectations

I know that kaja is exceptionally smart. That is the main reason why my expectations for her are much higher than those for the average person I meet. I know her brain is capable of quickly assessing a situation, drawing the right conclusions and I understand that she comprehends how to act and react in any given situation when I give her the opportunity to learn prior to it. As time progresses and our meetings become more frequent, depending on her schedule and need to be with us, the rules and expectations for her will become much harder to satisfy. I am fully prepared to lead her carefully to the very edge and have a tether there, almost falling over into the abyss. i am willing to take that responsibility and I am almost sure that kaja is willing to go there.

I have expectations for myself and my slave as well. I hope that we can grow just because there is another stimulus in our relationship and I can honestly say that it has invigorated me and simply reassured me of how much I love my slave. I have feelings for kaja which are present every time we play, yet when I dive into them to investigate I am always left with one conclusion. I love my slave, I am in love with my slave and in this early phase I have developed a plethora of feelings for kaja which all revolve around being protective and a little possessive as well. When you find a toy as precious as her you want to claim it for yourself, keep it from the rest of the world and guard it jealously. In reality that only means that I am enjoying myself and itis of course her decision to judge how much she wants myself and my slave to be allowed to control over the next few years.

This is a taxing challenge for me. I am very set in my ways when it comes to getting what I want. I lack the moral tissue many are taught or born with that protects the rest of the world from the evil antics of an individual. When I want something I am willing to step over dead bodies, stop time and I am not even opposed to doing something illegal, as long as no one gets harmed. It takes me a disproportionate amount of time to decide what I want and I am very picky when I actually approach what I want, but once my mind is made up I go for it.

With a human being that poses a lot of issues. Emotional stability, expectations and understanding of what you want of that other being has to come first, You cannot simply put them into a bag and carry them off, then keep them in a little shelf and look at the all day long with a silly grin on your face.

Seduction

In the face of full disclosure and because I believe it makes the hunt much more interesting I am going to reveal one of my secrets. I do hope that this is no secret to anyone with half a cup of common sense, yet sometimes it has to be said.
Just as I did with my slave, to get her to want to be with me and surrender to me as my slave, I want to seduce kaja into wanting to be our little toy. I want to structure her experiences and my willingness to listen to her wants and needs in a way that it becomes an experience you want to have over and over again. Very much like that one ride at the one park. While you can go to any other fun park in the world and ride all those rides, you still come back to this particular one. You come back because it can give you something the other rides cannot, or it gives  an amount of something the other rides cannot top.

I want us to be her fun park and my slave as well as me the ride. I great pride in educating myself in trying to be a good Master, Owner and Trainer and I know that my slave constantly aims to improve herself. I want her to understand that she can grow with us. She is allowed to be anything she wants, a bondage doll, wrapped in latex, covered in rubber, a porn star or kinky puppygirl with her own web-site that funds her education. I want her to understand that as much as I want her to be shaped into something that makes my slave and me smile, she also need to see me as an enabler. That is what I do in my professional life and it is a set of values I believe in.

We all set ourselves goals and I should set myself one. Whether that is to have the best time ever and enjoy it while it lasts or seducing kaja enough for her to grovel and beg for a collar; I have not decided yet, I am sure we will find out soon.